Tazers Should Be Allowed

I've been divorced for over a year now, and separated for over two. We hit the two-year mark the day after our youngest son's birthday ... nice, huh? Happy Birthday to him! Jerk! Anyways, I've been divorced for over a year now, and my ex is STILL a part of my life, albeit a very nasty, skanky, foul-smelling part of my life.

As you know, he can't hold down a job to save his life now. He says he's QUIT those jobs but I think he got FIRED from them, and hasn't been paying his COURT ORDERED Child Support since February, and now, he can't even manage to send me his freaken BOWFLEX payments! Did I just not see what a complete asshole he was back when I first met him in 1997 or did he turn into the jackass he is now? Did his skanky girlfriend have anything to do with his change of character, or did she just help to bring it out in him?

Anyways, back to the heading of this post ... I think tazers should be allowed to be used on Deadbeat Dads like him. I don't want to see him dead, he's just not worth that kind of hassle. I would, however, like to give him an electric shock or two just to try and knock the STUPID out of him! Of course, he's gotten SO MUCH stupid in him lately that one or two shocks would probably not be enough. And more than that would just be a waste of a good tazer!

There's just no help for some people ...

Good vs. Evil

Why are some ex-husbands such complete assholes??

I actually have two ex-husbands. The first, well ... we should have never gotten married, and I'm actually surprised we STAYED married for five years. When we divorced, we went our separate ways and that was basically the end of it. Neither one wished anything bad to befall the other, and neither one of us did anything to try and create extra hardships for the other. My first husband and I never had children, so that made it significantly easier, as well.

My second ex-husband, however, is a totally different story. I devoted ten years to him, total, and he continually tries to make my life hell. We have two children together, and both have Autism. He has not seen them, of his own choice, since the middle of June 2008. He got pissed off at ME, and just didn't show up to pick them up one evening, and hasn't seen them since. The being pissed off at me part is just an excuse, I'm sure. Having to have two kids around when he's with his tramp girlfriend is just not his idea of a "good time". His loss. Entirely his loss.

Anyways, this last year, he's done everything he can to try and leave me and his children destitute. He's falsified numbers on our tax return, AND he's filed an amended copy of our tax return WITHOUT my consent or knowledge. Can you say TAX FRAUD?????

He stopped paying Child Support at the beginning of February. Can you say DEADBEAT DAD????? He had a very good, very stable job in IT that he quit in July of 2007 so he could go out to Missouri and learn how to drive big trucks. Gimme a break! THEN, according to his blog, he left THAT job mid-February because he supposedly wasn't making any money at it. I think he got FIRED, personally. He's basically turned into a total loser, unable to keep down a job. Geez ... just like he was when I first met him!!!! I guess I shoulda known better. I sent him an email today to "remind" him that he needed to send me a check for the Bowflex payment. It's in MY name, but HE has it at the skank's house. I doubt that I'll see another dime for that. Jackass. Some people never grow up and never learn to be responsible for their own actions. He's one of those people!

Now, I'm a big believer that everything happens for a reason. I don't know WHY things happen, but I have to trust that everything that happens has a purpose. If I hadn't met the idiot and married him, I wouldn't have two wonderful kids. They are worth 100 of him and more. He doesn't DESERVE to have these kids in his life.

So much more to come ...

Cause ... and Effect

Just over two years ago, my life took a dramatic left turn onto an unknown and very frightening road. I found out, quite by accident, mind you, that the man I'd spent the last ten years with, and to whom I'd committed my life, was leaving me. What's worse, he was leaving me to raise not one, but TWO, special needs children by myself.

Let me assure you that I've gotten past the hurt, fear and betrayal I felt at the time, and have tried to move on with my life. My ex, however, keeps doing stupid, nasty, and ILLEGAL shit that keeps us "tied" together. The love and devotion I felt for him has since turned into anger and bitterness, and I'm at the point of actually despising him.

This is my attempt to put my thoughts down into a somewhat manageable space and try to let it go as much as I can. Maybe if I jot things down, I'll stop reliving all the shitty things he's done every time he does something ELSE just as bad, or even worse.

If you're reading this, welcome aboard. We'll take this little ride down "Nightmare Lane" together. Feel free to make comments, and if you're in a similar situation, we can commiserate together.

Until tomorrow, when I'll begin with the first chapter ...